the un-moral animal

i got so depressed about having every page being “white” with black text, i had to change.
so this is my “change”. black background and silverish text.
i am in a funk. actually, i am in more of a funk. i am severely depressed. i had thought it had passed, because i get even more depressed during December, and now its mid-january, and i had my mania for the last few weeks, and everything looked really good, and now, its depression again.
i am trapped in this hell, that i have created and i don’t know how to get out of.