Dear Internet,
Sunday night I had a mini-meltdown of sorts, which lead to feelings of depression and lots of tears. I rebounded, mostly, within a few hours and more or less righted again. Taking into consideration that was the first meltdown of any kind in over a month compared to the almost daily meltdowns I was having before I became medicated, I felt pretty good about the recovery time.
While it wasn’t a pleasant thing to have happened, it was a giant kick in the ass to get back on working on ThePlan. I talked about ThePlan abstractly in this entry, so here it is in its glory. Blue marks items completed or in progress:
- Mental
- Continue seeing talking therapist (Dr. Parker)
- Stay on drug regime / tweak meds to find a series that works
- Find medicating therapist for drugs
- Apply for ObamaCare
- Meditate daily using headspace.com – Back on track as of 12/29/14
- Exercise/Health
- Take yoga classes at local place (Bethums approved http://www.fromtheheartyoga.com/)
- Start with 2x a week and build up
- Do planks daily
- Walk more to things
- Stop eating dairy in all forms
- Stop randomly smoking
- Stop eating out, prepare foods at home more
- Prep to start walking competitively (5k walks, etc)
- Drop some weight, start slow
- Take yoga classes at local place (Bethums approved http://www.fromtheheartyoga.com/)
- Living
- Find apartment in Grand Rapids to live solo and work – Lease signed 12/9/14 for one year, starting January 2015
- Money/Jobs
- After the house sells, I will have enough money to live for a year-ish
- Car will be paid off
- Rent will be paid in advance for the first year-ish
- Car /rental insurance insurance will be paid for the year
- All credit cards will be paid off when the house sells.
- Only monthly costs will be car gas, utilities, phone, internet, storage locker, plus small utilities such as Hulu+ and Netflix.
- Writing
- Look for a co-working space
- Write daily mood occurrences and things that happened
- During this time, I will be actively working on my book and also working on making passive income via selling short stories, ebooks, etc
- If I am not generating enough income within the first six months, then will start actively looking for a job in my field
- After the house sells, I will have enough money to live for a year-ish
Because things are always fluid, this plan has changed slightly from the one that I wrote up earlier in the month; but the crux of it remains the same. I get there are some days I don’t want to get out of bed and other days I cannot get to sleep.
I need to remember that by having the plan in place, it will allow me to function while I continue to get my mental health sorted out. It won’t be easy. It won’t be smooth, but, it will be of my own making.
xoxo,
Lisa